I can't believe it has almost been a year since this happened. It has been a long year dealing with it all. I've rarely said anything about it because it was hurting too much. Today I had several messages from my mother. She got news that my brother was free, and all charges were dropped. Of course I was super excited making posts on FB, twitter, and calling folks. My mother was finally able to get the full scoop from my brother. He pled to a lesser charge and has 3 years probation. My excitement went down for a minute. She told me he was tired of being in jail, tired of not being able to raise his son, and just tired of it all.
A part of me is mad as hell because he was innocent. We were behind him 100% and ready for him to go to trial and prove his innocence. But then I had to step back and put myself in his shoes. I don't know what it's like to not be free, to not be able to see your child everyday, to miss out on holidays and birthdays. I don't know what it's like in jail and to feel alone while life is just going on without you. So yes it's easy for me to want him to stay and fight, but I'm not him, and he's not me.
Another part of me is thankful and praising God in spite of it all. I know he has a long road ahead of him. I know he has some serious obstacles to overcome. But I also know God for you is greater than the whole world against you. So no it didn't work out the way we wanted, but God still gets the glory. I am praising Him because my brother is free. I am praising Him because my mother will see her son on Christmas. I am praising Him because my nephew has his father. I am praising Him because my brother is ALIVE and we have a chance to rebuild our relationship and start anew. I am praising Him because my brother has a chance to have a new and better life!!! Q
2 Cor 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.